And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.

why are you breaking apart?

to see another dearly person turning into a stranger

and i can do nothing but just sit there and watch it

]]> http://www.hyperballad.mabdese.net/2010/01/14/why/feed/ 9 http://www.hyperballad.mabdese.net/2010/01/01/oh-a-new-decade/ http://www.hyperballad.mabdese.net/2010/01/01/oh-a-new-decade/#comments Sat, 02 Jan 2010 04:52:14 +0000 Hyperballad http://www.hyperballad.mabdese.net/?p=735 I can’t believe this!!! 2010!!! another decade has arrived!!

time goes by so fast, i really wish i can start my life all over again XD

it was fun calling my friends in China, because of the timezone, they get to live in 2010 earlier than I do. So i was asking “ohhh how is 2010!!!!! wait for me I will catch up on u guys!”

urr how lame-o -____- but i totally forgot the countdown! since I was still revising my college essay, i am really really worried and want to give my best effort, hopefully I can make it to my reach colleges, but it seems like..meehhh

it’s a new decade! I need to forget about the past, maybe work harder in college~ whichever I will attend, I would seriously start to work hard! Gee, up til now have I come to the realization that I could have studied much harder….. oh well~ mwahahaha colleges here I come~

my new decade resolution

1. lose weight lol!  I am currently about 5′8 and very close to 5′9.  I remember two years ago when I was 5′6 and weighted about 100lbs,  I was really skinny and looked much better!  And then I don’t grow that fast anymore so all the food I ate went to my arms stomach legs and mostly, my face!!!!!

My eyes became smaller because of the fat, my nose became bigger because of the fat, and my V lined chin is forever gone…

I need to get rid at least 25 lbs, gonna see my friends in China this summer, I cannot see them with me looking like this >_<

2. Write more reviews

I am so irresponsible! I need to start write more reviews…although many other reviewers are much better and talented than me on writing…but I really enjoy doing it~ I need to at least finish reviewing Hikki’s works right?? haha~

3. Join clubs that is strange but always interested me, take some art/music classes to take up my time.

My boyfriend, whom I liked in secret for a long time and finally liked me back…broke up with me last week.

I was really sad, but good job I did not cry in front of him. I actually even smiled and joked around like I always did, but then when I came back home I started reading this really sad love story and finally cried T_T, I think I cried myself to sleep. When I woke up I cried even more because my eyes became so swollen and I looked so ugly >_<

But I was really happy, it is really hard to find someone you love who also loves you back. I was lucky to have him, even if it was not everlasting. He fell in love with another girl.  I actually knew about this before our breakup, but it was useless to save anyways. I was glad he told me straight-fowardly instead of cheating behind my back. If he did I would seriously punch his eyes and make him a human panda (maybe that’s why he chooses to tell me? lol)

Anyways, 2009 was not really a wonderful year for me. But most of the problems was due to my own irresponsibility. I am going to work harder and just live as happily as I can.

Cheers and may you have a wonderful 2010~

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How can I be sooo irresponsible?????

Hypy is very very busy right now,  and it is all because of her stupid bad habit of slacking off on everything she does.

very bad eh??

yes, bad!

bad!!!

I shall return around January-ish, so much releases these days, some are  worth the anticipation and some are rather disappointing….

Enjoy your holidays!!! I hope everyone of you the best and best and best ! >_<

I was born on November 1st, 1991, at 11:10 am

It’s sad to say goodbye to 17…my favorite number ever..

I will miss you..

I was being a jerk because I didn’t get gift or a brithday cake from my mother, gosh I am such a whinny brat, she is so busy and look how stupid i acted like = =

I am growing up~ time to face difficulties in life hahahaha

I received wonderful gifts from my friends, and I was really happy reading their birthday wishes..

ah…I feel really really sad, its so stupid to think this way, for I always make myself miserable

but I just feel so bad, I feel terrible.

gosh am i having some birthday syndrome or what..

This month starts off very very weird..= = Stress is building up….

Yesterday I was taking a ceramic bowl off a pretty high shelf, and I missed it, the bowl fell on my forehead and broke into pieces…one of the broken piece cut across my nose bridge and well…it was pretty bloody and disgusting

I thought my face is ruined!!! They have to sew the wound back together because it won’t close T__T  I looked like Frankenstein after the stitches, which is sort of cool~ haha especially during the Halloween time?? XD

Hopefully I won’t have a big scar across my nose, and hopefully it will heal fast…

I will take SAT this weekend~ Best wishes to whoever is taking the same torture exam like me <3

I have friends who is also friend with him, and he looks really familiar to me. He plays soccer and basketball, and is also a Link Crew leader.

Even though I don’t really know him, I feel very sad for his family.  When someone you deeply loved is no longer a part of your life…

My hearts goes out to his family and friends, I wish he rest in peace.

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Also, I am having this huge argument with my mother, she is definitely not satisfied with my ACT or SAT scores, and she is restricting my computer usage again – - I don’t understand why she does it…the more she restricts, the more I want to use it -___-

I was writing Maki Goto’s review last Friday and she was furious again, I can understand her anger towards me. She was an outstanding star student growing up with praises and admirers,  how can she understand me, who is just an average student with no motivation of going to Ivy League or to become the valedictorian or whatever? She is so confident, she never know how people like me feels like, why don’t I want to be the No.1? Why don’t I want to know everything?

Oh well~ I have fun arguing with her, because she cares about me, worries about my future, that’s why she spend her time trying to persuade me into studying.

She told me that if I got 100 on the test, I will want to get 100 again next time, because it feels good to receive As.

I actually do get 100s on tests, but I never thought about getting them again and again, I never really want to study that hard just to see a one-zero-zero on my test.

My personality is so different from hers…I’m sorry dear mother T____T

Anyways, I don’t know what I’m talking about now XD, isn’t this supposed to be a review blog?

I do try very very hard writing my reviews, I do revisions all the time.  However my reviews always turns out to be pointless, tasteless, and flavorless…

This so so tragic…

But like I said, Epik High and Maki Goto is coming out next, along with Mika/Ken’s single reviews, don’t expect them to come out soon though…

If you are looking for awesome reviews/ music news , I recommend you go check out my blogroll on the right side of my site, there lies my favorite music reviewers. <3

I was choosing between Ipod nano and Iriver Clix, but I ended up choosing Clix because the reviews were much higher, anyways, the day after my mom ordered it Apple released new Ipod nano series, with lower price but higher capacity…I bought my Clix 8GB for $250..

My Clix 2 Red line

It’s pretty small, fits into my palms. The video quality is truly amazing and beautiful however I rarely use that function

You can chance the fonts, backgrounds,play games, read text, whatever like that.

The most amazing thing about Clix is its sound quality, the SRS WOW HD sounds so crisp and clear that it makes me feel like i’m listening songs @ Live. I never heard any other players with such beautiful sound quality!!!

How it works..You just click the sides of the player, up/down/left/right. It’s super easy to learn, and really kinda fun

Anyways, after 2 years my Clix is still as good as new, I clean it everyday and there is no scratch or any damaging to it. I see it more important than anything else almost, since it contains 8 GB of my soul XD. I mean, listening to music is the biggest part of my life, except sleeping and studying and talking.

But now…I really don’t know what to do

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In the beginning I thought that 8 GB would be enough, but now its definitely not enough…I have this bad habit of not deleting songs that I don’t listen to. I always thought “Ohh this song is not so bad, someday when I’m in the mood I will listen to it…” or “Ohh this album as a whole is soo epic! I can’t delete this song, it will ruin the idea of the album” and I have full length albums that I don’t even listen to, I just thought I would review it someday and so I kept it there…

Stupid, Stupid habits…sometimes I think being organized is really a bad thing…so that’s how my Clix is filled with,

1/3 frequently played songs, 1/3 ok but rarely listened songs, 1/3 totally junk songs from the album…

I don’t know why I am being so organized with my MP3 library, I guess it’s because before I had a really cheap brandless player and I just put songs in, but now with the Hi-Tech Clix I just try to make it looks good…

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Right now I think 8 GB is really not enough…

And I want to get a ZUNE HD

It’s….beautiful!! *3*

I also really like the Ipod Red..

Ahhh gosh I don’t know what to do!!! Maybe I should just review those artists fast then get rid of them!!!!

But seriously..the new Zune HD is so beautiful~ Drools..

I personally love both of the VS CMs!!!

Namie’s on fire!!! Wild/Dr. was such an awesome and unique single and judging from the preview, I think the new single is going to be greeeeeaaaattt!!!

What do you think?

My Love


Copy that


Enjoy~ <3

When i played the videos, it will play 10 sec of Ads first then the pv will come, so just wait for a few sec~

Because of the time zone difference, the video will load in different speed (slower if its daytime in China)

I thought the video was really really boring, Mika just sit there and singing…without any hyper movements you see in a circus…

and the circus idea is so popular these days!

However I really like the song! She sounds sexy and musical-like~

Candy Girl PV <-click to see

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I also found Ken Hirai’s “Candy” PV on Tudou, well about the PV…I hate the fro hair style but it looked good on him..

Tell me what you think of these PVs! <3

Candy PV <-click to see

GOSH Ken …

I know I wasn’t working hard during these past months, now don’t hit me! Because you just cannot hit me!!!

I try to write reviews alot, almost every week; however, sitting in front of the computer, I cannot come up with anything good to say…how should I write about an album? How should I write about what I think of the album instead of writing a long and boring track-by-track analysis?

I just don’t know what to do…that’s the hardest part for me right now

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Anyways, about my life. Urg! How I despise AP Physics!! We are going to finish up our major quiz tomorrow and I just want to puke, thinking about those nasty questions…

Today I had my AP Calculus bc exam, the moment I turned my test in, I realized that I have committed an error by adding an extra “2″ when I should’ve just leave it alone. Now 4 points got taken away, and I definitely failed that natural log derivative problem and maybe couple of the AP multiple choice questions..Boo

Tonight, which is now, I will have to write an in-depth analysis about a confusing short story which I cannot comprehend at all…what does this miserable woman has to do with paradox at all? Oh well, my English teacher would appreciate anything with complicated philosophy and SAT vocabs..

I really need to start a new life, I should rest a bit after come back from school, then finish my homework withnot any distractions. I cannot believe I am still slacking off in my senior year.

Oh and SAT and SAT subject tests and ACT with writing!!! Gosh I wish someone can just knock me out and when I wake up, everything is done already XD

Hopefully the lady will contact me soon this week, I applied to become a reading tutor for children who is bad at reading, I want to spoil them with lots and lots of candies <3

But I don’t feel really good this week, something is going on with my friends and me, I feel frustrated all the time, like so angry and full of hatred? X_X

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Anyways, enough of my blank and boring life. Hmm talking about boring, I am so tired of those KPOP artists, so tired of girl groups with bright coloring styles, so tired of those funky edgy but actually pretty darn ugly styles, so tired of those nothing but techno-ed voices.

Let’s have some Indie, let’s have something more artistic, let’s have something simple yet charming

Let’s have some EPIK HIGH

(Yo wassup, u want a piece of me?)

Ok now sorry about the lame line above…but EPIK HIGH is one of my favorite KPop artist ever, they are nothing like what you have heard from these other mainstream KPop artists ( Definitely not implying that I dislike/bashing mainstreams in anyways)

EPIK HIGH is an Indie Hip-Hop band, they do collaborations with lots of underground/Indie artists and their music is enchanting <3~

Hmm..I guess you can say that EPIK HIGH feels like a bottle of chilling and pure water that stands along those manufactured coke cola caffeine products?  (my English teacher is going to kill me with this description hahaha)

I think you all got the idea now, I got most of their albums excluding those earlier ones, but I can say that their work is really creative and completely unique plus amazing! I got their newest album [e] today and I love everything about it.

Oh and their albums tends to contain lots of tracks, [e] got a whooping of 30 tracks in total (include lots of short interludes).

To me,  their album is like a story, you just cannot stop with all the fascinating interludes that lead you to another story.

Ok Ok I will shut up and do my English assignment now~ Weather is getting chilly, which I absolutely love <3